i know she dosent read this. in her position who would, but this was lame and it sucked, i still function, i didnt just fail at life like i usally do after, but it still sucks, this truelly is a damn anberlin song

So i lost it again, it was all the same joke life plays on me, atlest i was ready, maby thats why it faild so quickly. who knows i am not happy anymore though, i guess its time for somthing to happen

doh

this really sucks, in the start it clicked so well, now it failing. i dont want it to, i want to try harded but it seems like she has already given up, this really sucks, for once i was ready, why cant it just work. this really sucks and im not happy. in fact the fact this is failing again is almost devistating, out of anyone i have had in my life, the wounderful ppl, the beautiful girls, she was always the main goal, and again im going to watch her leave, this is the joke i was waiting for, the puchline, Haha one person who makes you the happyiest ...... GONE lol you suck,

"I'm here for you," she said
and we can stay for awhile,
my boyfriend's gone
we can just pretend.
Lips that need no introduction
Now who's the greater sin
Your drab eyes seem to invite
(tell me darling) Where do we begin?

Was this over before...
before it ever began?
Your kiss, your calls, your crutch
Like the devil's got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips, your lies, your lust
Like the devil's in your hands

Everyone in this town
is seeing somebody else.
Everybody's tired of someone
our eyes wander for help.
Prayers that need no answer now
I'm tired of who I am.
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin.
Was this over before...
before it ever began?
Your kiss, your calls, your crutch
Like the devil's got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips, your lies, your lust
Like the devil's in your hands

Failure is your disease
You want my outline drawn
You were my greatest failure
Discourse your saving song

Was this over before...
before it ever began?
Your kiss, your calls, your crutch
Like the devil's got your hands
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips, your lies, your lust
Like the devil's in your hands
[x2]

Many things to decide opon i need a 2nd job, but what of eveything els? i still want to be out by 21 but is what i have in my life able to help with that? many things must be looked over and i might lose much so i can gain more.